I decided this year I would really enjoy Christmas. You see there are several things that have been keeping me from enjoying Christmas the last few years. Years ago I loved Christmas, it was my favourite time of year. I started a tradition of making breakfast since I was single I always spent the Eve with Mom and Dad. But these last few years grrr!
It started a few years back when my boyfriend gave me black & red sexy lingerie. I loved, don't get me wrong. The problem was he had me open it in front of his kids! I was humiliated. I would have liked that to be done in the privacy of the 2 of us. That I didn't get that year. That year I did not enjoy.
By the next year I was suffering in a lot of pain from a car accident that summer. Nothing would have made me happy that year, I was too busy feeling sorry for myself.
Last year was a disaster. I wanted to have a little romance with the boyfriend, whom I had now moved in with, however his teenage daughter had recently decided not to speak to her mother, so we were hosting her. He had a lot of guilt so would not send her to bed until almost midnight. He was trying to give her a great Christmas Eve. The problem was he had a few hours of wrapping to do. All this resulted in him getting drunk and stressed out. When I suggested he take 10 minutes to have some romance he threw a temper tantrum.
That is 3 strikes, the crappy Christmasses. I am done. This year I am detirmined to have a good time even if I do it alone!
So here is the plan.... Do something in the spirit of Christmas everyday for 30 days leading up to Christmas. It started Friday night, the 25th.
It was nothing special that I did, just read some Christmas magazines. I had to get in the mood. I couldn't jump right in. I decided what cookies I would make for the 2 cookie groups I had committed too. I also got a few new ideas about simple decorating such as just throwing a bunch of Christmas balls on a plate and sticking a candle in the middle.
I was ready. This is going to be the greatest Christmas in years!
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